[	Current Location	|	home (kitchen)	]
[	mood	|	disappointed	]
[	music	|	Human Television - I Forgot	]

the only good thing about today is that i had coffee for dinner (no food). 
i got up excited to hang out after school with my friend.
 of course.....she dosent show up even though she says she will (all the time!). 
so i call her phone four times at school and she doesnt pick up 
(which happens all the time). and after school i stop
 by her house and what do ya know, no one answered the door. 
i thought she might be hanging out at the skatepark and no, shes not there. 
does it make me obsessive to want to hang out with her so much? 
or maybe i should just get more friends 
who remember things or follow through on stuff. so i went to my hair 
appointment alone, got coffee alone, 
hung out alone, and then my mom picked me up. 
maybe theres something im not understanding.
maybe i should be more forgiving?
and yes, i want her to read this (since she is only one of my four friends :-/)
am i making you sick of me. do i want to hang out too much. tell me.....
its not just today you forget about me

[	Current Location	|	home	]
[	mood	|	peaceful	]
[	music	|	Animal Collective - Banshee Beat	]

adrianas coming with me to get my hair weaved again. id do all the roots, but all the hair dressers say they think if i kept doing on the scalp ill go bald in the
future :-( work was okay, kayla works with me now! yay :O) we made fun of knife man the whole time. my dad made an appointment to get winston fixed! and to stop his bloody penis biting routine.

[	Current Location	|	scuella	]
[	mood	|	irritated	]
[	music	|	no doubt - magics in the makeup	]

maybe i should get my premit. cause sitting at home chain smoking out my window is the saddest pathetic thing anyone can do, if its day after day after day. why cant i make any new friends! no one likes me blah blah blah. cry cry cry. bye bye bye. who will always be there for me?